“And there will come a time,
you’ll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart,
but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see
what you find there,
With grace in your heart
and flowers in your hair.”—Mumford and Sons- after the storm
I shouldn’t have to remind myself why I deserve to be happy, fit and healthy.
But I do. I don’t seem to listen to myself or believe myself. Why is this. Why don’t I give myself the focus and attention it deserves. Why do I prefer to help everyone else with their problems? Is because I can then escape my own issues or am I more confident at being able to help others than myself? Where did this lack of self belief come from? I can aspire for any job, house, or thing, with confidence and entitlement. Yet when it comes to my actual ‘self’ I give up shortly if not immediately… I don’t even understand myself. I can have this internal reflection yet I know still I struggle to help myself, my mind, my body and spirit. Why?!
Does anyone else face this issue? What do you do/ have done, to overcome this?
“The worst part about anxiety attacks, is that you’re aware it’s irrational and sometimes unexplainable, but knowing that gives no aid what so ever. In most cases it deepens the anxiety as you realise “if I know it’s irrational, why can’t I stop it… Oh god I can’t stop it” you begin to believe you are no longer in control of your mind. That. That is fear.”—Ami Desu (me)